Monday, April 7, 2008

I am so lonesome I could cry...


Tonight.. I am so lonesome I could cry...

I got two shocks today.. the first one was about a very close friend.. he is going through a very very tough time, everything that he built his life around is falling to pieces.. and no matter how much I want to comfort him and tell him not to worry.. to tell him that it will be ok.. I know there is nothing I can do and I don't have words to describe how frustrating that is..

I see him there, kneeling helpless
..in pain
I see his tears falling to the ground
..in vain
I see the demons attacking
..in packs
I see his blood spilling
..through cracks
I see his last breath wheeze out
..in defeat
I see him die
..at my feet
and like a statue I stand still
from my little safe bubble
watching the demons eat there fill
unseen tears fall blinded from my eyes
stopping at the invisible boundary
fate has built with my unheard sighs

the second was that my dad is leaving tomorrow for four months.It was so sudden.. I mean he told me today after dinner, and I just get to meet him for half an hour tomorrow and then he'll be gone :(
I'll miss him so much.. now I too need that party tomorrow to cheer me up :(
As Elvis Presley would have said..
I am so lonesome I could cry...

20 comments:

John F said...

Aww! Its sad :-(

But anyways you have a big party to host tomorrow! So put on your best smile and light up the room Sherry!

Solitaire said...

Cry kar le. You will feel better. I hope your friend also feels better knowing that he has someone who cares so much for him.

Mez said...

Awww u need sumtin more than a blog party to cheer u up. How about a movie with ur frds? Cheer up sherry!!

anuj said...

hmm .. at times a lot of things come rushing to you at the same time .. you friend, I would say might be ok with time, just keep by his side, you don't have to say it specifically he'll realise that and would be pleased with it .. and m sure that would help him too ..

daddy would be back soon too ;)

I hope you enjoyed the party .. however I would have wished to join the party but such was the fate that my bsnl got screwed last nite and my net isnt working till now .. i came to the lab to make the most of it .. but i guess its already over .. bt a grt idea n m sure people had grt fun ..

cheer up .. cheese

humbl devil said...

sometimes we encounter situations where thrz nothing we can do...
but we can always provide support...moral, emotional...
so just be thr for him and try to always motivate him...and make him face his demons with a smile...

Anjuli said...

Cheer up girl!

smile :)...see...it's coming....yeah....a li'l more....thr u are :)

Vandita said...

hmmm hope ure feelin all better after the party in the mornin ...
let it all out sweetie...
all the best to u and ur frnd :)
take care

S.Ghosh said...

but then its life .....so face it with smile at least u can help your friend to cheer up


by the way liked the poem :)

freesherry said...

@john f
lol
thats exactly what I did
and I hope everyone had fun

freesherry said...

@solitaire
hmmm.. ya I am better now.. he too is better.. turns out not all is lost and there was a mistake so his problem might still be solved :)

freesherry said...

@mez
thanks i am ok now
but am really missing dad

freesherry said...

@anuj
hmmm...
but i still am missing him na :(

and as for the party
koi na.. we'll have another one and then u can be there :)

freesherry said...

@humble devil.. I am trying my best :)

freesherry said...

@anjuli
that was so sweet
and yes it really made me smile
thanks :)

freesherry said...

@vandita
I am still missing dad
but am feeling better abhi :)
the party really rocked :D

freesherry said...

@S. Ghosh
life it is indeed
thanks :)

vEENs said...

dnt worry.. everything will be alright

Sutta said...

This reminds me of a beautiful poem by Pablo Neruda. "Tonight I can write the most sad lines" or sumfin.

Aap fikar mat karo, sab thik hoga. Trust me, sab thik ho hi jata hai. :)

freesherry said...

@veens
yeah!
Everything is already better now :)

freesherry said...

@sutta
thanks
I am already better.. back to my bindas bored self :D